Drawing Strength in Weakness
Hmm. I woke up quite late today at around 11am. Not very disciplined but well anyway i'm still clearing my leave so i can enjoy abit ba. Haha. :P Hmm. I suddenly feel e urge to just write a entry.
Well yesterday was fun. Going on a date with Vic was pretty "fun" as i got e chance to keep suaning her but nonetheless it was great.:)It was a photo taking cum scrap book making date that was organised by Andrew. I wasn't really very keen on tat idea cos i'm really quite lousy at art stuff and i seriously dun really know wat to do during e scrap book making time cos i dun even know where to start and how to help.. i'm so noob at art sia.. -.-! But must appreciate Vic for doing e scrap book thingy n for doing most of e work cos her date which is ME is a pretty dumb art noob. Lolx. We did take some nice pictures during the date and i might post them up on e blog when i get it. :) But a pity, we too focused on e photo taking then din get much chance to talk too deep. Well never mind, there will more chances.(hinting vic..) Lol..:P I feel that overall the date was pretty fun although i do have some disagreements in which the way the date was being organised but well, i talked to andrew and i think he accepted my feedback pretty well and i'm sure he will go n find out more and plan a better date for all e sisters next time so sisters, pls look forward to it again. Haha. :P
I think yesterday i was kinda moody and not keen to talk too much though i did not let any ppl know and i just told myself that i should be giving n try and be less self focused on myself. Probably i'm thinking too much of my own weakness again. A kinda of thing that always bugs me alot n sometimes can get me down by abit.
Weaknesses... What does Weakness means to me?? It means abnormality. It means e lack of capabilites to do or achieve something. I think weakness is something that is very real to me as a person as being a person with much weakness n flaws. Though i think i do appreciate my own weakness at times as it really helps to remind me that i need God and His Word and His ppl but more than often,i think it does put me down abit.
I think of my own dream to become a good basketball player. I think i have long given up this dream. Standing at a mere 1.68m n 47 kg and with stamina n health restrictions, it is simply hard to excel in this amazing sport that i long to be good at. With my that kinda of physical build, one will not think that basketball is a sport tat i should have choose or fallen in love with in the first place. I know that but nonetheless e passion for that game remains deep in my heart.
I got and started playing basketball in poly yr 1. My best friend Stephen dragged me out and taught me how to play basketball step by step. He show me wonderful pictures in the comic "Slamdunk" and till now, slamdunk is one of my favorite comics along with "Dear Boys". I quickly fell in love with this sport called basketball n slowly learned n trained from basics.In the midst of my training, I got accquainted with some good basketball players in NYP which most if not all are of school level or compeitive basketball standard. They taught me alot n gave me e chance to know how fun basketball can be when played with a grp of players who can play team n is willing to help out one another in game.
All along, i have been playing alone n training alone but playing with them definetely brought my game level to a much higher level although very tiring with my small phyiscal build. I'm often e smallest size among all e players and often is e one who is almost e lousiest but nonetheless, i was never made to felt that way as my teammates tried their best to build my confidence level as a player up. I have a lot mental weakness in game n i tend to miss all my shots under pressure. I remembered playing always with e christians like Wee Chung, Alex Theo, Ting Hsin and etc and all of them are so tall, big and all have experience in compeitive basketball before beside me. I never managed to play well when playing with them until that time, i got my own basketball teammates to come n play with Wee Chung they all at e old NIE. As i expected, my friends performed well against Wee Chung they all but what touches me e most is their willingness to share e ball and pass e ball to me and try to let me score as they wanna me to prove to e christians that i can perform when ppl believe in me.. I think that game was a big turning pt for me when playing with the church ppl. I always remember what one of my friends told me while we are having a drink at Bishan Mos burger after e game. He said " hey petes, ur friends are pretty good at e basketball but they aren't tat good until u have to be scared of them. Just play normally n play ur best and u wun lose out to them.." And since then, i managed to play better when with the christians and getting acknowledgement from all e good players in church certainly managed to boost my morale in game when playing with them alot..
I read alot of basketball comics and watch all of NBA matches. How i wish i have e capability to raise to the level of gameplay and excute perfect passing, dunks and beautiful n suave moves of basketball..How i wish i can be running freely in the court and playing a beautiful basketball game.. But alas, reality is always cruel as i'm always reminded that no matter how much effort or passion that i have, it is impossible for me to reach that level. The dream of becoming a competitive basketball player have now dimenished but i know that deep in my heart, e fiery passion for this sport still remains and all the precious memories of the game will forever remain in my mind although i dun get much chance play it now. Maybe one day, i will be able to return to the court and run freely n play freely again. Do you love basketball?!?! YES. I do and will forever love....
But now my calling is different. I may lack the capability to play sports well, lack e capability to speak well and i may have many other weakness but nonethess God have choosen me as a servant and as His Son. The calling for me now is to be learn and love ppl around me. There are much things for me to learn as a christian and definetely it wun be easy. I have slacked enuff and it is time to work more for the Lord. As i struggle in my own weaknesses, there is a need for me to draw strength continuously from the Word.
In 1 Corinthians 1:25 :For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength.
Man on our own is nothing. What does God not know and what is God incapable of doing? NOTHING! Only by understanding God's love n mercy, i guess will i be able to slowly overcome my own sinful nature of insecurity towards ppl and only understanding of God's power will i be able to slowly learn to rely on Him again. Amen.
Well yesterday was fun. Going on a date with Vic was pretty "fun" as i got e chance to keep suaning her but nonetheless it was great.:)It was a photo taking cum scrap book making date that was organised by Andrew. I wasn't really very keen on tat idea cos i'm really quite lousy at art stuff and i seriously dun really know wat to do during e scrap book making time cos i dun even know where to start and how to help.. i'm so noob at art sia.. -.-! But must appreciate Vic for doing e scrap book thingy n for doing most of e work cos her date which is ME is a pretty dumb art noob. Lolx. We did take some nice pictures during the date and i might post them up on e blog when i get it. :) But a pity, we too focused on e photo taking then din get much chance to talk too deep. Well never mind, there will more chances.(hinting vic..) Lol..:P I feel that overall the date was pretty fun although i do have some disagreements in which the way the date was being organised but well, i talked to andrew and i think he accepted my feedback pretty well and i'm sure he will go n find out more and plan a better date for all e sisters next time so sisters, pls look forward to it again. Haha. :P
I think yesterday i was kinda moody and not keen to talk too much though i did not let any ppl know and i just told myself that i should be giving n try and be less self focused on myself. Probably i'm thinking too much of my own weakness again. A kinda of thing that always bugs me alot n sometimes can get me down by abit.
Weaknesses... What does Weakness means to me?? It means abnormality. It means e lack of capabilites to do or achieve something. I think weakness is something that is very real to me as a person as being a person with much weakness n flaws. Though i think i do appreciate my own weakness at times as it really helps to remind me that i need God and His Word and His ppl but more than often,i think it does put me down abit.
I think of my own dream to become a good basketball player. I think i have long given up this dream. Standing at a mere 1.68m n 47 kg and with stamina n health restrictions, it is simply hard to excel in this amazing sport that i long to be good at. With my that kinda of physical build, one will not think that basketball is a sport tat i should have choose or fallen in love with in the first place. I know that but nonetheless e passion for that game remains deep in my heart.
I got and started playing basketball in poly yr 1. My best friend Stephen dragged me out and taught me how to play basketball step by step. He show me wonderful pictures in the comic "Slamdunk" and till now, slamdunk is one of my favorite comics along with "Dear Boys". I quickly fell in love with this sport called basketball n slowly learned n trained from basics.In the midst of my training, I got accquainted with some good basketball players in NYP which most if not all are of school level or compeitive basketball standard. They taught me alot n gave me e chance to know how fun basketball can be when played with a grp of players who can play team n is willing to help out one another in game.
All along, i have been playing alone n training alone but playing with them definetely brought my game level to a much higher level although very tiring with my small phyiscal build. I'm often e smallest size among all e players and often is e one who is almost e lousiest but nonetheless, i was never made to felt that way as my teammates tried their best to build my confidence level as a player up. I have a lot mental weakness in game n i tend to miss all my shots under pressure. I remembered playing always with e christians like Wee Chung, Alex Theo, Ting Hsin and etc and all of them are so tall, big and all have experience in compeitive basketball before beside me. I never managed to play well when playing with them until that time, i got my own basketball teammates to come n play with Wee Chung they all at e old NIE. As i expected, my friends performed well against Wee Chung they all but what touches me e most is their willingness to share e ball and pass e ball to me and try to let me score as they wanna me to prove to e christians that i can perform when ppl believe in me.. I think that game was a big turning pt for me when playing with the church ppl. I always remember what one of my friends told me while we are having a drink at Bishan Mos burger after e game. He said " hey petes, ur friends are pretty good at e basketball but they aren't tat good until u have to be scared of them. Just play normally n play ur best and u wun lose out to them.." And since then, i managed to play better when with the christians and getting acknowledgement from all e good players in church certainly managed to boost my morale in game when playing with them alot..
I read alot of basketball comics and watch all of NBA matches. How i wish i have e capability to raise to the level of gameplay and excute perfect passing, dunks and beautiful n suave moves of basketball..How i wish i can be running freely in the court and playing a beautiful basketball game.. But alas, reality is always cruel as i'm always reminded that no matter how much effort or passion that i have, it is impossible for me to reach that level. The dream of becoming a competitive basketball player have now dimenished but i know that deep in my heart, e fiery passion for this sport still remains and all the precious memories of the game will forever remain in my mind although i dun get much chance play it now. Maybe one day, i will be able to return to the court and run freely n play freely again. Do you love basketball?!?! YES. I do and will forever love....
But now my calling is different. I may lack the capability to play sports well, lack e capability to speak well and i may have many other weakness but nonethess God have choosen me as a servant and as His Son. The calling for me now is to be learn and love ppl around me. There are much things for me to learn as a christian and definetely it wun be easy. I have slacked enuff and it is time to work more for the Lord. As i struggle in my own weaknesses, there is a need for me to draw strength continuously from the Word.
In 1 Corinthians 1:25 :For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength.
Man on our own is nothing. What does God not know and what is God incapable of doing? NOTHING! Only by understanding God's love n mercy, i guess will i be able to slowly overcome my own sinful nature of insecurity towards ppl and only understanding of God's power will i be able to slowly learn to rely on Him again. Amen.
